Final blog post (for now)

There are few modern endeavors less successfully executed than the blog. Click on the “blog” link of many sites, and you will see a few anemic posts from years ago when the site was created. Or you may see that posts to the blog section are perpetually “coming soon.” If cobwebs could form on the internet, blogs would be the corners where they collect.

This blog has been no exception. Yet there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think about things I would like to write. The thoughts are there, but the time, or more likely the discipline, are lacking. Still, the interest does not wane. Ask anyone who regularly spends time with me, and they would easily tell you my favorite topics of conversation. The words “ad nauseam” would likely come up.

My quest since I lost my religion, was to find someone with a convincing argument why I should return. The quest remains, and may return in this blog. For now, I find my inquiry mostly takes the form of conversation. If you are a Christian and would like to discuss this topic, I would love to hear from you.

Until writing makes sense again,


13 thoughts on “Final blog post (for now)

  1. emery. why did you lose your religion. what made you stop believing? i believe that god exists because i look at what i went through and what i have overcome. i have been in situations where god has shown himself true and only by god have i overcame. blessings come from god and the bible is true. it makes sense and if you tried reaching out to god you wouldnt have left the faith. it would out worked out for you, like it did for me. im just assuming though on you.

  2. I accidently came across your blog, which incidentally has probably got quite a few cobwebs at present, but at that felt it warranted a reply.
    Nothing but God makes sense in this life, every single thing in existence provides vital evidence of his existence. Taking God out of the equation you are removing the existence of tea leaves in tea, if there is no God then nothing in this world makes sense logically or emotionally. What would be our purpose in life to live, eat, sleep, try and achieve something and have it taken away by death – that would definitely be pointless. Evolution is out of the question as all of a sudden we are no longer changing, why aren’t certain species still evoluting into humans? Big bang I believe in but an organised one, one planned and brought together by the ultimate planner and developer, God. Something so accidental as it is put in some scientific terms can’t create this amount of complexity and order.
    I think the only way you can help yourself to get out of this predicament is to ask God yourself, to sincerely ask God to show you the truth of his existence and to guide you to the best way of worshipping him.
    Wishing you all the best I truly hope you find religion; maybe you have to be open to the fact that it is not in the form you expected it to be. As a fellow human being for your own benefit ask God to help you, imagine being raised from the dead realising you got it all wrong, that would be the true loss.

    1. What does the belief in God have to do with religion?? I believe in an all-mighty, and all-LOVING God. One who doesn’t require us to pick one specific “faith” for the entire world. I’m spiritual. I believe in a higher power….but I don’t believe in a man on a pulpit telling me and the rest of the world what to believe and that if i don’t believe that….i will burn in eternity. I wouldn’t want to serve a supposed all-loving God that wanted to send everyone who didn’t believe and think exactly the same to an eternity of suffering. The world should look to our creator, our God for examples of love and kindness….not exclusivity. God doesn’t have to look the same to everyone on this earth. It’s realizing that there is a creator and that he does offer peace, love and happiness….but that you don’t need religion to discover that inner peace. Just alone, the realization that we are spiritual beings, that there is a loving God who wants to give us everything we need, and want…..but that that love is not only offered to people who read the bible.

    2. You must be joking. Do a little more reading on this site and and you will understand. There’s been no lacking in Emery’s logic or digging to find a reason to believe in “god”. The fact is the logic exists only as a self-serving mechanism. Any logic or reason to believe in any sort of god only comes from a place of fear and the need for comfort. Even if you decide that god is for you, you still haven’t answered the more pressing question; which god? There are so many to choose from and there is no real logic that says this one or that one is real and the others are not.

  3. Inaccurate to say I “lost” my religion. “Tossed” works better. It’s been nearly 15 years. And a month beyond that, will be 30 years since I decided to immerse myself in Christianity, hoping to he “fixed” from outside myself. Various religious organizations advertised God and Jesus as being able to fix anything, anyone. After 15 years of waiting, praying, reading scriptures, singing hymns, and attending church, I called this deity into my office and said YOU’RE FIRED. That was it. Just days later, I found your site. Thank you for being there as the newest (and BEST) chapter of my life was starting. Friendly Atheist, Bruce Gerencser, MoJoey, Black Tsunami, Godless in Dixie, and so many more have come along since. I hope they inspire you as you did me. Thanks again, and may you have love, luck and happiness!

  4. I still believe in God but do not trust in pastors or church. My old pastor flirted with me and we had an emotional affair. I felt a romantic connection with him during worship. I felt that he put me under a love spell and then he brainwashed me to cal him Daddy Jesus. I told him that I liked him and wanted to marry him. Then one night I put make up and pants and did a dance for him and he delivered me to Satan. I was sick in the hospital after that because I stopped taking my meds. He never showed up to visit me or pray for me. Today he is giving me the silent treatment for leaving his church. I am heartbroken because I thought he loved me. Why would he flirt with me when he is married. I guess he was using me as his source of supply cuz he is a narcissist.

  5. People just can’t get it that without religion you can have an extremely meaningful existence. It just doesn’t expect to go on forever. They also cannot get that some of us appeal to God (sincerely) and he is silent. And some of us have worshipped, prayed, read the bible, and heaps of books about the bible to try and make sense of it for something like 40 years! It didn’t work. No meaning, peace, happiness etc etc. If there is a loving God who gives us everything we need why are so many starving? Why are little children being horribly abused (and even killed) by those supposed to care for them? Some people say God answers their prayers for peace, happiness, health, material things. If it works for you get in your knees and think of people other than yourself. Just pray for the starving and suffering and see if God answers that. (Now here comes all the stuff about sin and free will and having enough faith, all the standard excuses why God only works mostly for the rich and educated in the world, as long as they say all the right things.)

    1. Jac is spot on and Elaine is very close through the mid section. I am not an Atheist and don’t think I ever will be because of the clear intelligent magnificence of the earth, the heavens and life on earth. I am still a Christian but no longer believe in the goodness and perfection of God. I don’t see His love. In my life (after a lifetime of devout obedience even in life-threatening crisis) or in most Christian lives. I mean if something is going to be counted as true it has to be true most of the time. You can’t have something be true approx. 0% of the time and call it true. I don’t see Christians powerful or benefiting at all. We are the most stomped on people on the face of the earth. I can understand why some (misguided) people try Satan. At least they get some power to defend themselves from being bull-dosed in this life. God tells us not to defend ourselves in any way and then He doesn’t defend us either. So we are just supposed to be masochists our whole life through without even the mental protest to hold evildoers accountable IN OUR MINDS. That to me seems like a demand to despise ourselves and that alone cannot be loving can it? The other thing is the excruciating amount of suffering AMONG Christians. I can’t prove it but everything I see tells me we are FAR worse off in life than the evildoer. They are living it up with all the money and joy in the world. I was listening to pastor Katie Souza’s testimony about her Christian mother’s decades-long debilitating illness (3 videos on her YouTube Ep. 31-33) and I almost lost my faith then and there. I have never forgotten it. What did this woman possibly do to suffer like that? Was she not forgiven somehow? It shook me to the core. Since then I have seen example after example of how God treats His own faithful and it’s never good. Job, Joseph, Moses, Paul all were punished horribly. Don’t understand how that is a gain. We have all the rules and none of the protection, love, and promises we are supposed to have. Zero. I have cried out to God in desperation for 5 years and am only just now realizing the meat of what we are promised is just lies. John 10:10, supplying all our needs, ask for whatever we want and we shall have it. Piles of dead Christian bodies when we are supposed to have access to healing. Legions of homeless and starving Christians, whole continents even. Where’s the beef??? How does it glorify God if He promises the moon and delivers nothing. I don’t understand. Were we supposed to suspend our ability to reason and just ignore generations of reality? Just pretend it’s not happening. I thought the point was to show Himself now and again so we could have testimonies to evangelize with. It seems not. Then on what basis are we to invite new Christians?? What do we have to offer them? What, a life of sorrow and agony? How does that make sense? I decided to stop trying to figure it out because I need my sanity since I DON’T have His backup. My whole life, since I was a tiny child, I was always taught that if I really needed God (like I do now) I could pray and He would help me. I am devastated to be forsaken in my time of life and death need after a lifetime of devout loyalty. I am cruelly on my own. Love, no. Mercy, no. Perfect, no. And that’s not even going into the personal, very specific, fuck you of my entire life story.

  6. Christians think they only get through troubles because of God. Lots of people get through lots of troubles without appealing to God. They use determination and resilience and inner strength combined with a certain amount of fate going right for them. Christians think they are “blessed” with all they have and whatever goes right for them. Never mind those not equally blessed. It is arrogant to think you have a God looking after your little world and stuff everybody else.

  7. Being a Christian is so much more than just following God. You have a life to lead and likes, dislikes and wisdom to share. You will make mistakes. You will suffer. You will be hurt. You will love. You will hate. You will question. Your life continues regardless of whether you lose faith but being a normal everyday human being and a Christian is possible. Share your experienced life wisdom and if that includes your Christianity then that is fine.

  8. Emery. A reason to return to being a “believer” but not necessarily “religion” is”: Becoming a “believer” is the most comfortable way to die.

  9. Hi Emory, I am not going to try and convince you to return to the Christian faith. One reason is I was in the midst of responding to your post on the Sin Nature until fiber hit the screen and it vanished, therefore, I am not doing it again. The other reason is if not else in the world is true, this one thing is you have left Christianity that says it all. Why, because as you probably know as suspect the scriptures does says there will be difficult times and a falling away. So, if you think about it, it really does not matter what ruse we give it intellectual enlightenment, naturalist worldview …etc it still remains true people are leaving. And, this is coming from a person as a six year old asking himself looking at nature where did this all come from saying to himself someone made all this. I did not grow-up in a religious home, far from it my mother and aunt had friends back in the early sixties that participated in what was called sissy ball, so we were pretty liberal. Sorry, didn’t mean to digress.

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